Since freedom movement it had remained burning question for a person to resolve which path should he choose for serving society. One is more inclined for abolishing the ills of the society and other is dedicated for strengthening nation. Nationalists have always criticized social reformers for weakening national movement and suggested them for waiting till India would get freedom. Agarkar was left by Tilak for similar cause. To some extent Gandhiji converges both the ideas, but still Ambedkar got criticism from all sides. During my college days I had been in touch with many group, solely due to fascination of my mind. At that time I was completely unaware about commitment for an organization and benefits or losses associated with that. Groups who were advocating for social reforms, used to criticize Hinduism and Indian culture strongly and used to suggest me stay away from GRA group. Though all the members of GRA loved me and I had cordial relation, I was criticized by Anandji that I would get benefits from all sides. In fact I never understood the working style of GRA and its strong organizational structure based on RSS line till I directly started working with Pracharaks in Sonebhadra. Now I know that GRA was not a students organization, but it was simply a wing of RSS and working on the same pattern. Whatever the case, due to nationalist bent I got good friends in GRA and similarly understood social concern with other groups and I believe that was in sink with my nature.
For three years I fully devoted myself for Ashram cause while coordinating educational activities for slum children living in township surrounding. At that time I found Ashram in dire need of volunteers and funds and hence I worked full heatedly. In this process I spent all my leaves for Ashram cause. I planned for computer center, library and quality schools. Some of those ideas have already proved. Anandji, pracharak and caretaker of Ashram has always talked about Ashram, Hinduism and reiterated similar stories. With time I understood that RSS is fully devoted to BJP and it is not sure that BJP is really devoted to RSS or not, though many key functionaries of BJP are deployed by RSS. It is very difficult to talk about the merits of other party in the presence of RSSites. It was clear for me that RSS is not working for the poor, as in my first meeting Anandji declared that the poor are concern for them as poors are part and parcel of all the religion. Many of friends who are more concerned with the poor, stopped going Ashram finding that children of the Ashram are not among the poorest from their village. But I understood well the need of keeping such children for strengthening nation and also they are also in need of assistance.
Meanwhile I keep telling about the dismal condition of sweeper colony where I used to go for understanding their situation in different forum of RSS, but it remained unnoticed. Now as the situation has changed. There is Gov. of BJP in the center and also there is Modi wave forcing leaders of other party to join BJP, Ashram also got chance to have frequent visits of MLA and MPs. Anandji also told me that he had made them to work for improvement of Ashram. I again requested him that let the MPs just give a call for the concern authorities for improving their situation, but it remained unheard. Instead he was telling me the stories of lad grab by Muslims and reading poems of sacrifice so that I will devoted myself for the Ashram. For him working for the Ashram only is Rashtra Sewa. In five years I have sensed that even RSS is also working like an NGO pattern, not giving due credit to those who are working for the society without getting associated with RSS.
This year on the occasion of annual function, local MLA was honoured as chief guest, Mr. R.B. Pathak made his 200 employees to visit Ashram. Now I believe that Ashram has enough patron to look after and it is time for me to devote myself for upliftment of downtrodden within the society. I would like that Pracharak should understand that these works are also a ways for serving motherland.
